Currently Playing Galvanize By Chemical Brothers see related

Sigh

Well I've kept my weight constant between 138-140lbs, which is nice since I've been slacking off and eating too much. But not so nice since our formal is on Friday and I'm gona be a fatass

Currently wasting time instead of writing my essay which is due in...3.5 hours and then I'm catching the bus. Technically I could come late for class, which would give me an extra 40ish minutes to type up this mofo at school. Except so far I've written zero words, and I need to type out 2000-2500...Somehow I don't think I'll pull off a last-minute amazing paper that I'll get a B on. My prof for this class is a jerk face who didn't give any extensions, so fuck you bastard!

I'm tired, cranky, and I've officially OD'd on black coffee. And menthol Benson & Hedges

I met a boy. Actually it's a boy I've seen at school all the time, but never talked to until Sat when I went out with some friends and he came too. Nice...He isn't a jackass who never calls when he says he will, and even called after one day instead of the "mandatory" three day wait. (Which is such BS by the way)

I hope things work out...We're going out on Weds, which i guess is tomorrow. Oy

I just need a guy who's gona be good to me for once. I've had it with these jerks i constantly go for. Speaking of which, i broke my promise of no more casual sex last Weds when i hooked up with some guy. Who happens to be my good friend's ex gf's ex bf. Ha! Nice...And he wasn't even that good, but that's beside the point

Not eating, or at least not eating much healthy stuff is totally taking a toll on me. It's like I'm permanently pissy and spazzy and i can't focus on anything

My body hates me, but hey, the feeling is mutual, so who cares

Started taking my vitamins again like a good little girl...

Bleh

This week's goal is to lose some poundage. At least a few pounds for Friday...I was gona make school my goal, but fucking forget it.

At least I'll be nice and busy. Meetings tomorrow. Date on Weds. Beer garden on Thurs. Formal on Fri. Soccer tournament supervising on the weekend. Good times

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I so need a change

Lately not much has happened

Besides me being rejected by this totally sweet guy I've been crushing on. But it wasn't even a quick rejection, the painless kind. It was the I'll-show-interest-then-never-ever-call-you type. Ugh

Like I don't feel unattractive enough already, now I get rejected by some guy too...Thanks

School's been pretty bad. I'm so busy with Supervising that I bail on doing homework. Can you blame me? Hmm, writing an essay vs watching hot guys play soccer? Yeah, tough decision.

A week ago I was happily at 134lbs, my all time low. And now I'm back at 140lbs, which is just lovely.

I'm so gross no wonder he rejected me

No wonder everyone always ends up rejecting me. Sigh. Can you tell I'm in a shitty mood?

I'll definately need to take some laxatives this week if I wana get my weight back down. Oh and not eating so fucking much would also help. I just keep stuffing my face it's really repulsive.

Plan for this week: don't eat!! At least not at school. At home I always throw it back up anyway so it's ok

Sigh

I can't handle rejection at ALL!

Oh and I didn't get that exec position I applied for either. So there you go. Double rejection

Woohoo...

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This last week has been complete shit

So much for enjoying my Uni break. Ha...

Mon-Wed i was practically immobile from pain. Had some tests done at the Doc's. Started feeling better on Sat...

Called clinic today to see what my results were and they said it's all clear, so i got happy. Especially because i've been worrying that i got an std or some crap like that

Except an hour later the clinic called back and said i should come in ASAP to discuss my results, because guess what, they're NOT all clear after all

Of course the pricks won't give me a hint as to how bad it is on the phone, no they'd rather have me freaking out until tomoro afternoon when i can stop by after classes.

So now instead of writing my history essay i'm trying to come up with the best way to tell the guys i've fucked recently that i might have given them an std.

And now that i think about it, in the past year, it would be six guys. Two of whom I don't have any contact with at all, four of whom were one-time-only deals, and three of whom i've had unprotected sex with (possibly four, the last one was so long ago i can't remember)

Yuck

Maybe i'm blowing it out of proportion, but from now on it's gona be like this:

Cute Guy says: "Hey, you wana go out some time?"

Me: "Sure, but just so you know i have herpes/gonnorhea/the clap/hiv/[enter std of choice], so i hope you don't mind if i pass it on to you."

Cute Guy runs as fast as he can, far faaaaar away

The End

Oh, and I gained like 5 fucking lbs in the last 2 weeks from being sick and fucked in the head

*Herpes it is.

Already told one guy. Apparently i only need to tell the ones i've slept with in the last month or two. Which makes it easier

But fucking awkward!

Hell

Currently Playing 12:51 By The Strokes see related

Hmm this week's been ok with the whole studying harder thing. Exams might have something to do with me finally being motivated...

Work today was boring per usual except for the part where this cute guy who always comes in asked for my number. :)

I didn't give it to him though. Now I'm kinda regretting it, but whatever. I'll see him again next week when i'm working. (probably?)

Today i stuffed face. Bad bad bad!!! Binged, but it didn't do much. So took some laxatives too...

I've turned into a fat blob of pathetic desparation